Well I have hit the 39 weeks mark. What a fun, amazing and miraculous journey it has been. Sad moments, extra hormonal pissy moments, scared moments and some of the most happy moments I have ever experienced. (Seriously....I just had to grab a kleenex just from writing that last sentence.) :) We had a moment Thursday night where we thought "this was it." Long story short, it wasn't Baby E's moment, but that time will be here soon. The next day was pretty rough for many reasons. There are twists and turns in life where the "why" may never become clear to us. It's so hard to comprehend how one person can be going through a blissfully happy time in their life while someone else is experiencing the deepest sorrow that a human being can know. Heartbreaking doesn't even begin to describe those feelings. I'm at a loss to find a word that goes beyond that, but I'm not sure that word exists. I just thank God for the people he places in our lives to help us get through the darkest times.
Thursday was my last day of work. Such a weird feeling!! I have had a job ever since college, aside from a few months right after we got married and I moved down to Altus. I don't think it will hit me until Monday morning. Let's pray that there is a baby before that day comes though, ok?! :) I plan on spending some time cleaning, maybe finding something crafty to do and just resting and relaxing as well. We have an induction scheduled for Tuesday night, but depending on how my appointment goes Tuesday around lunch time, I will be able to cancel or go ahead. There have been signs of progress every day lately, so hopefully it won't be needed. But eventually, if I do need one, I will just go with it! I have chats each morning and evening with Baby E. Basically I reassure baby that it will be a little cold but not to be afraid because we will warm him/her up and take very good care of little one! :) Then I get scared I am going to make baby feel guilty so then I have to end our talk with "But if you are not quite ready that is ok!" Teehee. Already scared of guilting our kid!! Ha. Anyway, it is obviously uncomfortable at this stage but I am trying to soak up every last moment of my pregnancy. Next time I post just might be when Baby E is sleeping next to me as I type! Oh I'm so excited! (And tearing up again by the way!!) Until then......here is my last preggo picture (maybe....) Also, I had to add one of the awesome storm we had last week. I finally got my big thunderstorm minus all the tornado drama!!
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You look AMAZING! Can't wait to see pictures of your little one! Hugs! Becca and Addison
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