Letter to my Precious Punkin (a little late but I couldn't get this to post last week!)

To my precious sweet Maya Jayne,

I can hardly process that it has been a full year. To think that on this night, one year ago, I was packing my bags to enter the hospital so they could start the Cervadil. You would be arriving on the 8th and we didn’t even know if you were a boy or girl!! That is also so hard to comprehend now. I was feeling anxious and a little scared but most of all I was feeling pure joy and excitement. Crystal was my favorite nurse of the whole week and she made me feel so comfortable when we checked in. She and the other nurses were so excited that we didn’t know your gender so they all started putting in their guesses. Crystal guessed girl! In the wee hours of the morning I started having some pretty strong contractions before they even started the Pitocin. Your Mimi, Papa, Teta, Papa Dale and Aunt Sharla were all at the hospital most of the day while Mommy labored. Daddy was so sweet and helped me breathe and also gave me foot massages. They broke my water at 10am and you progressed fairly quickly. As the big moment came around 2:30pm, the family was sent out of the room. After 45 minutes they heard your very first big cry and Mommy and Daddy heard “It’s a girl!!!” Words can never ever explain the feelings that washed over me as they handed you to me. My precious baby girl. You looked right in my eyes as I cried and gave you kisses. I thank God every night when I go in your room before I go to bed. I watch you sleep with your little hiney up in the air and I thank Him that He chose me to be your mommy. What an honor, privilege and huge responsibility. It has been amazing to watch you grow over the past year. I remember your very first smile and I am so happy I got it on video. Your little personality has emerged and you are quite funny and independent already! I knew you would be independent pretty early on when I tried to help you along while you were trying to suck your thumb. You would have NO part of it and pulled your tiny hand back! Little did we know you are like that with most things still! When we play “How big is Maya?” and I try to put your hands in the air for you, you will also have no part in that! I imagine if you could talk, you would already be saying “Do it myself!” I can’t wait to see what is in store this next year. How amazing to get to spend every single day watching you grow and learn. I love you Maya Jayne and I am absolutely the luckiest Mommy on earth.

XOXO,
Mommy